What if you are deaf?

Yes, the title is a question. 

What if you go suddenly deaf after years of being able to listen to the sounds all your life. 

I went to google about how completely deaf since young people actually think in their head. 

Apparently, they don't think like how we, as normal humans do. Every thoughts in our minds are made out of words and we hear the words in the head. But they don't, they think in the language they learnt since young - Sign Languages. 

Every thoughts in their head are imagined with the signs of the language. So, the question in my head is, what if those people who don't learn sign languages, especially those who are being discriminated and then not given the chance to learn. How do they think then? 

I believe every humans have feelings but how are this group of people express when they feel hurt, when they feel happy? I really wonder.

Lived a life of a half deaf (quarter deaf to be precise) for the past 5 days & this 5 days are kind of scaring me out. 

I woke up on Monday realising my left ear seems to be blocked and I was quite surprised I didn't panic for that moment. I went to pump my ears like we always do when water gets stuck in the ear but the inside of the ear hurts so I decided that it's probably the small wound in the ear causing it. Got some ear drop from the pharmacy and yes, the ear don't hurt that much but I'm still half deaf on the left. It was not that scary in the beginning, given the fact that I still hear my music in the earpiece, the comfort I found on the first day. 

But this comfort doesn't lasts. 

My colleagues sit on my left and I couldn't much hear their conversations, which I secretly used to do. Well, they know that. This was not what got me panicked.

On Wednesday, I went for an orientation for part timers with my senior and I couldn't hear much of what she said when she was standing a distance away from me. I couldn't hear what the part timers were discussing when they were reading through some instructions. 

THIS was what it got me thinking.

What if I can't hear on my left ear anymore?

Right now, the left ear gives me the stinging sound that the silence in the ear always have. iPod was the only comfort when I'm out of the house alone. But when it comes to bed time at night, it gets pretty scary when I couldn't hear my sister's breathing when I sleeps on my right side. The silence overwhelms me and it got harder to fall asleep. 

Been fed antibiotics by doctor who believed my ear block is caused by my sinus (which I strongly believed is ear infection) and colleagues were pushing to get breakfast this morning so that I can eat my medicine. Too doting I can't find any words to describe how nice they are. 

Anyway, moral of this post is just to remind myself to appreciate my ability to hear. 

It's been a long post of being deaf and here's to the weekends. 

Cheers. 

Please remember to shop at Causeway Point and get a chance to win a 24" Foreverfriends plush for meeeeeeeeeeeeee. 

Till then.