Snippets of 2013

Another year just passed and here we are, on the first day of 2014. 

But this year, it's a total different feel. 

There was no excitement for New Year and I thought it was just me because I had no plans at all. 

But no, it was not just me. 

Guess time has been passing really fast that we are all losing interest in all these festivals that are happening because they are coming and going at a too fast rate for us to handle. 

Well, 2013 has passed and it had been a rather bad year, I guess? 

I thought I could have it end good just like what I expected because I really ended 2012 very badly. But hell no, things just don't go according to what we want and yupp, it's been a rather bad and rocky year for me. There are so many things that happened all at one go and then nothing in a phase that got me so flustered because I was so afraid that it won't last long and all. I was so aimless at a point of time because I had nothing, nothing to look forward to, nothing to want to achieve, nothing to nothing. There was a point of time where I felt so empty that sometimes, I cry to sleep because I got frustrated just because of this. I got stressed at a point of time because everything seems to my on my shoulders and I can't help to settle them at all. 

2013 was also a year I fell weaker and weaker as months pass. From the normal backaches due to stress, I ended up having all the weird illness. Since internship started in the 9th month of 2013, my entire body started to feel very weak easily, like there's no energy for me to even use to lift up my head/ limbs. Then I started to feel feverish very easily and I get tired really very easy. Till now, my left ear is still giving me problems and I was apparently half deaf for a week or so because it felt like my ear was blocked by a mini wall inside. It's still not recovered yet but I hope it does soon. 

But then again, 2013 had gave me so many memories as well.

It is the year where I had a passport full of chop chop because I left for so many places (not much but still). Philippines, Hong Kong, Genting etc. with my fav girls from school. Bond between the family is growing stronger and stronger between the cousins. Internship in a shopping mall. 

Philippines trip has been quite a good trip even though there were nights there I started to think a lot, started to miss my family because we were there for like 10 days and that was a long trip and continued connection was what made me miss them more. I fell sick there as well and the thoughts at night got worse too. But overall, it had been great, travelling around and eating. I grew the most weight during this trip too. Like what the girls said, I had a fishball face there. 

Hong Kong trip was a better trip as compared to the previous trip there, probably because I've grown up and the people made me comfortable there. The free and easy time at nights were the best because we get to leave out hotels and have our own time own target plans, unlike during secondary school when lights out means lights out even it's overseas.  Even though there were a few unhappy events that took place, I'm glad it made my bonds with the girls stronger which was a pretty good thing. :) Disneyland was so much better as well as compared to 5 years ago when it first operated because there were so much more areas now and the new rides are still fun. 

The best part of these two trips was that they actually happened. Planned the trip with the girls just nice that we had 2 days of rest in between before setting off for the next flight. Feels like seeing the same people for the entire month after exams! Despite some factors that actually still affects me up till now. 

Genting trip, which was the last trip I've went before internship was good too. Last batch of people who managed to play in the outdoor theme park before it was closed for renovation till 2015 and I finally sat my so much missed space shot ride even tho the safety belt felt so loose I was so afraid. AHAHAH. First time watching movie in Malaysia and we watched 2 at a go which was cool because the movie tix are almost half the price of Singapore's. Midnight bowling and arcades all were what we did for the next 2 days which was fun even though we didn't head to the much missed mushroom farm but the company was still the best. :) 

Internship, where all the stress and frustrations got worse.
I guess from my previous posts, I've mentioned how stress I had been because I felt like I wasn't even needed there and what do I have to put into my report for the school and all? 
I got stressed that my backaches got worse. I think my breathing problems got worse at this point of time as well. But what I can be thankful for is that the ladies actually treated me as a temp staff instead of an intern and the stress was slightly lifted a bit because I didn't felt the strictness of supervisory in the ladies which was good, I guess. The nice ladies are actually one of the factor I'm actually thinking of asking to extend for another month but the amount of work for me to be done actually turns me off because I can have on day that I don't have anything to do and I just rot there which I really hate because, hey, I woke up so early to stone in the office when I could have just sleep in isn't it. 

2013 was more of a >down,
It was so full of sorrows and midnight tears that I eventually ignored all but migraine decides to attack at times. So annoying that whatever was affecting the mind affects the body and makes me feel even weaker.

By the way, I had one of the best Christmas as well, which the other was last year's yatch ride, because it was the first time I actually received so many gifts, all chosen with care, and of course what I wanted as well. Spent time with my family in the night of Christmas eve and it was a great dinner. 

I had a really troubled night after the A&E visit for 4 hours in the middle of the night because of the people and ambulances who kept coming in and was kind of traumatised but nahhs, I shall not go deep into it because I guess most of my friends heard it alr and I am too lazy to type it down anyway. 459am right now, I guess being lazy is a legit reason now. 

Please let me have a better 2014 because I know I need to do something big and good for myself and for everyone. 
Till then, goodnight. A long post that took about 20 mins to finish up. Goodbye.