Attachments

Because everyone comes and goes out of life, we are all scared of being too emotional attached to anyone. 

It feels so hurtful.

Today, a kitten appeared in my house. I don't know how it entered but it appeared from under my sofa. 

It was the kitten my brother told me to feed the other day because she was trembling under my void deck outside the pump room. 

It didn't eat the food that I gave her. It was still trembling till I moved closer to her, just like today, she stopped and brush her fur on me. 

I had to bring it downstairs because my family doesn't likes animals in the house. 

It was struggling at first, but eventually clung onto me as I walked down the stairs. I felt the hug; telling me to keep her safe. 

I left her some food, but she doesn't wants it. I left it while it looks at me with that eyes that make me feel so guilty for leaving her there. 

It was gone when I went to find her before I head out. 

Attachment is scary huh, even if it's that few minutes. 

It's like telling you that you have a support there, you have someone there and then the next moment, the person is gone. 

The person left you all alone there, at a corner, feeling so helpless. 

I know that feeling, I hate it. 

But in some cases, they had to leave, just like I had to leave. 

They can't bear to, but they had to. 

Some for personal reasons, some leave simply because they no longer wants you in life. 

Huge different, isn't it. 

Emotional attachment is freaking scary thing, but it would be the most happiest thing on earth before anything happens. 

Ohwell, I wonder where's the kitten. 

I wonder what happened to those left hanging around, helplessly, with the one leaving them alone. 

I do wonder. 

&this post reminds me of the orphans at Vietnam's orphanage. 

That's why I told myself not to get too attached to anyone because when they leave, they leave without turning back. 

Life.