A month ago.

You've been gone for almost a month but it didn't seemed like it.
Everyone looked so normal dealing with it but hey, all their conversation goes back to you. If it's not about the wake, it's about those days when you are still here w us.

Thank you for teaching us all so well, so loving to each other. It's hard to see big families coordinating so well these days, even tho there were so many dramas here and there.

Thank you for always trying to bring everyone of us, all your children, your siblings altogether. It just didn't seem so distant even with relatives we don't see so often.

Thank you for loving me for the past 20 years altho I'm still so jealous that I never appeared in those photos from the past and I'm the only one who didn't get to appear in the photos. :( 

There were so many things to thank you for but I'm just gonna list these down because if I'm really gonna list all, it would be neverending.

For the past 20 years You've been by side, I guess we all, incl me, have to start getting used to not seeing you daily.

I missed you, my dearest ah ma.
Sometimes I missed you so much it hurt so much.

"You may lose the battle but you will never ever lose us."

Love you.