Passed 5 years.

I've been reflecting a lot in the nights. 
Friendship has always been a big part in my life. 
Sometimes, my tweets are so emotional some people just think that I have some crush or BGR problems. But nope, things are not what it seemed.
I had been through a lot of friendship problems, personally think so. 
Honestly, I really think that I've gone through quite a lot of problems with friends given the age I am currently at. 
It's still happening, but I've grown stronger, definitely. 
Wonder what I meant by the 5 years on my title? 
One of the 'life changing' things that happened. I think? 
Age 14, the age when kids turn into mature teenagers, where puberty much happens. 
I got a lot more sensitive than ever, well I still do now. 
It could have meant as my first friendship in secondary school and it got screwed up anyway.
Left a very deep scar that I don't think it will recover in any time, given the fact that I still can't bring the topic up to talk about. 
Lessons learnt quite a lot and I changed a lot too. Maybe to the worse, maybe for the better, I don't know. 
But what I can say is that, there's a lot of things I've learnt to face. 
It felt like a love relationship but hell no. Friends had always been the priority. 
I learnt a lot of things I suddenly forgot what I should say. 
How to face these problems, how to see who are those who are closer and identify things that I should see. Saying what kind of things and showing what kind of attitude. 
So many things I've learnt during those years. 
Thank you for hurting me so badly that I don't think you had ever realised. 
Maybe you did, but you didn't realised that it was that bad? I don't know. 
I won't want to know anyway. 
I have great company now, even though there's few that you dislike. I think.
I learnt to not hate anymore, I learnt that my friends have their friends and I shouldn't be 'jealous', in a way.
Fact about me: I never love the idea of my friends being closer to other friends, especially with people I dislike. 
But then again, I learnt it through the hard way.
Right now, I'm dealing with things well and I think I am going to do it better.

What I wanna say is that, sometimes, a simple action can change a person a lot. 
And by a lot, it really means a huge change.
But then, thank you, my friend. Thank you.
I was really surprised when you still has my number when I chose to not transfer yours into my note2. Thank you for remembering my birthday and texting me. That really caught me offguard.
But thanks. :)