Why?

Why is it that I'm being restricted so many things when I have the freedom I need.

Sounds ironic but seriously, I'm honest.

It's like being pulled all the way back to their time, I have to live like what they lived.

Expecting you to do all those that they had done in the past, all the different times, how am I going to live like this?

I need to live like my time and 4 other times to go along with.

Why?

I honestly don't get it.

It's the obligations and everything that's really suffocating.

Sometimes, I treat it as a given, but times like this, it is quite a burden.

The reason why I can't study at home, the reason why I need to be out, the reason why I can't get a job, the reason why I'm putting all these down here.

Obligations.

I admit I'm envious of all those out there because they don't have such obligations to follow.

They may have, but I will never know.

But sometimes, it gets on the nerves that whatever I do, I have to consider all these.

It's like,

If I were to find a job, I need my job to end in the late afternoon so that I can be home to prepare dinner.

If I were to study outside, I have to consider about the same thing again.

Whenever I try to argue my way out, I'm always losing.

Why? I hate it all the times.

It's been years.

Sometimes, talking about this, thinking about this, typing about this, I start tearing.

Why?

I really can't stand it anymore.

I tried to treat all these as a given, but sometimes, they just get too suffocating for me to handle.

Well, I just need to rant.

Bye.