What's going on?

Sigh. Suddenly I feel so frustrated. Ohman.
I think I'm too bored to be thinking all these things.
My body is giving me problems and my mind is killing me.
It's like mentally and physically killing me at a go.
Stomach hasn't been really good ever since the start of chalet and my right eye decides to have the swelling feeling again. Yes, AGAIN.
&then, the same old thoughts are coming in again.
But thinking about it, why so random?
I knew I shouldn't be thinking about it anymore.
I long lost that feeling?
But then again, it's like the hopes are going up again and I start thinking.
I don't know. I just dislike this feeling.
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In the end, people still decides to walk away.
I've been too used to be the one being given up I need to stop getting hurt over it.
I'm no fun and I know. &that's why they decides to walk off, I guess.
I don't know why I feel like this, but thinking through all these, I just feel so.
It's just like as long as there's a choice, I'm never the one chosen.
Walking away seems so easy.
Why is it so hard for me to walk away as well?
Sigh. What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with the brain. What's wrong with all these.
Okay, I need to appreciate my life.
Kbye.