Return.

So, I think I'm suffering from insomnia.
Okay, no, it's just that the body clock is screwed like nobody's business.
Couldn't sleep in the night and yupp, all those hauntings just come over.
It's just one of those nights that I just hoped I had never existed.
&then thoughts of 'what will happen if I die' just come popping out.
&then I had thoughts of texting all my friends, asking if I will die just by killing myself in my thoughts.
It just feel like the soul is dead and I'm left with the body.
Ok, lame, whatever.
But yupp. If you get me.
The thing is still,
the feeling you get when you know where the problem lies and you are not allowed, or rather restricted from doing something to solve it.
This is the thing.
Really can't stand it.
&then, the thing is, I'm forever tearing up when I get too pissed especially when I get pissed off by myself.
But then again, I expected a bad day today.
But it just seems like a better day than expected.
Waking up to a nice sweet text that apparently made me tear up, getting my dental over and done with and then meeting my best friend whom is already sooooooooooo shag but yet still come find me.
Everything seems to turn out way better than I expected.
&then I just realised that, I cannot disappear just like this.
There's still people who are loving me, who are always by my side, supporting me.
It's just my problem of communication when I just dislike opening up which I hate it because I'm always looking for someone to talk to and then ending up not saying anything.
But I will try. I will. I hope. I will. I WILL.
To be honest, I really have a huge bunch of great friends around me.
Probably cos I get attached too easily, it's harder for me to fall out with them.
I will be appreciative to them for accepting who I am.
Yes. I love ALL of themmmmm.
ALL OF YOU. <3